[ She doesn’t understand them yet but she will because that’s where the power lies: understanding how a thing works, the full shape of it. Why it works and how it breaks and how it can be made into a newer, stronger form. She had to understand the Army before she could survive as a soldier, had to understand the shape demanded of her before she tried to become something new; she never knew what shape mother was supposed to be but she tried. She held onto it with both hands and thought, maybe. And now here she is again, grappling with a system she doesn’t yet grasp but she will.
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[ She doesn’t understand them yet but she will because that’s where the power lies: understanding how a thing works, the full shape of it. Why it works and how it breaks and how it can be made into a newer, stronger form. She had to understand the Army before she could survive as a soldier, had to understand the shape demanded of her before she tried to become something new; she never knew what shape mother was supposed to be but she tried. She held onto it with both hands and thought, maybe. And now here she is again, grappling with a system she doesn’t yet grasp but she will.
She will, because that’s the only way through.
Her voice goes thick, even across the distance. ]
You don’t get to take this from me.